The "Something" Series

Always Ruining Something: A Monologue.

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It seems like Grace is always ruining something.

I don’t know what got into her tonight. One minute we’re out in the rain, dancing and kissing each other; the next she’s slamming the bedroom door and locking it behind her. I should’ve called out for her. I should’ve tried to get into the room to talk to her. I simply didn’t want to. I was actually annoyed with Grace after she stormed off.

Grace and I have been on pretty good terms since I came back. We both know there’s some unspoken conversations that need to be had, but for the most part, we’re doing good. Really good, actually.

But I couldn’t help but notice Grace’s behavior sometimes. She gets even more anxious whenever I want to talk to her in a more serious matter. Mornings when I go into the office, she gets really sad. And I know she constantly is worried about me having to back to Korea one day. Sometimes, I feel as if she’s counting down the days and gets more stressed about it as they pass.

I had to step away from the house for a bit to clear my head and gather my thoughts. I went to the cafe; it was the only place I knew to go at this hour of the day. I sat in the same place I met Grace almost a year ago. It’s crazy; how this time last year I didn’t even know Grace existed; I didn’t know that the love of my life was in New York City, at this cafe, buried in her paperwork. It makes me smile; it’s crazy how much life will pull you towards in the direction it wants you to go in.

The fact of the matter is, I was finally ready tonight. I finally built up the courage to ask her to be my girlfriend. I showed her my favorite spot in the city; my secret spot that I go when life gets a little too stressful for me. I came back for her, left my life in Korea to create a life here with her. She still doesn’t see that.

Am I doing something wrong? Am I not showing her enough? What more do I need to do in order to show her I love her? I closed my eyes and saw the four seasons pass by; I found her in the summer, fell in love with her in the fall, left her in the winter, died for her in the Spring, and came back for her in the summer again.

I opened my eyes, still angered by the thought that Grace still thinks I would leave her. That I didn’t love her enough to stay. That I’m just here for a while, go back, and forget about Grace.

But I can’t. I can’t just go back and live my life like it was before. I can’t go to sleep at night without smelling Grace’s apple shampoo in her hair. I can’t not wake up in the morning with her red hair all over my hoodie she sleeps in. I can’t come home from work and not have her there excited to spend the night with me. I can’t go about my life without the things that Grace added to it. It’s those things that are now my favorite things.

I grabbed the coffee I was drinking and tossed it in the garbage before leaving the cafe.

It started to rain again, and I tried to get back to the apartment as quickly as possible before the storm got worse. I made it to the apartment building soaked from the rain, but I didn’t care. I walked past the front desk and into the elevator to go back up to Grace.

I unlocked the door, and called out for Grace. There wasn’t an answer. I walked over to the bedroom door and twisted the doorknob, and to my surprise the door opened. I slowly opened the bedroom door and saw Grace sleeping in bed. She looked peaceful, but I noticed her eyes were puffy and her face was stained with tears. She had been crying, and I feel horrible knowing she was crying because of me. I didn’t want to disturb her, so I changed out of my wet clothes into something more dry and comfortable. I climbed into the bed beside her and instantly fell asleep.

I woke up the next morning with Grace’s side of the bed being empty. I quickly got up, in hopes that Grace was still here. I looked at the balcony area when I saw something move. It was Grace. I slowly walked to the balcony and slid the door open. Grace looked at me, and then looked out into the city. The sun was barely coming up.

“Hey, Gracie.” I greeted. She didn’t say anything back. I took a deep breath and let it out; the crisp fall morning air being visible.

“Grace, I’m sorry that I upset you last night. I didn’t–” I began until she interrupted me.

“You didn’t do anything wrong. I freaked out over nothing.” She admitted. I listened to her as she spoke; I didn’t want to speak over her if she needed to say something important. Grace only speaks if it’s something important, so when she does, I try my hardest to let her figure her thoughts out and speak out everything.

She finally looked up at me.

“I just get nervous. I know how it feels when someone is about to leave your life. I’ve had it done one too many times to me,” She stated. She sighed before continuing. “And I guess… I guess I’m just afraid that one day you will leave me too.” She spoke it into the air instead of at me.

I had to do this. I had to show her that she’s worth more than what she thinks she is.

“Gracie,” I started as I reached out for her hand. “I won’t leave you. I promise I won’t leave you as long as I can stay here. I plan to stay here for awhile too.” I said. “And,” I continued. She looked at me, confused.

This is it.

“I’ve been wanting to talk to you about something important.” I mentioned. She didn’t know what I was talking about. She seemed nervous.

“Don’t worry,” I smiled and reassured her. I took in a deep breath and paced myself when finally saying this. I really hope she says yes.

Joahae… ani; saranghamnida.” I nervously said. Grace looked at me, trying to figure out what I was saying. I looked up at her. Tell her.

“I love you, Grace,” I admitted. She looked at me in shock. I started to regret even saying anything. She hasn’t said it back, and half of me wishes I waited. She faintly smiled at me and before she was even able to say anything, I spoke.

“I–” I began to get flustered. I can feel my face getting red and hot. I then saw Grace smile in amusement; I couldn’t tell if she was smiling at me or to me.

She got up from her seat and crossed her arms on her chest.

“Jamie Kim, are you asking me to be your girlfriend?” she playfully asked. Aigoo, Grace. She came up to me and tussled with my hair. I felt like I was in high-school again in that moment.

But she put her arms around me and looked up at me. She was… happy. I couldn’t help but smile back at her.

“I would love o be your girlfriend, Jamie.” She softly said. I couldn’t imagine ever being Grace Ashmore’s boyfriend. The fiery redhead that was tough-as-nails and headstrong. The beautiful and talented woman that she is, is now my girlfriend. I couldn’t help but just grab her and kiss her hard on the lips. She didn’t protest, and once we broke up our kiss, she looks up at me and pulled me into the apartment.

Back in her bedroom, she pulled me on the bed and went to lay down on her side of the bed. I got into bed with her and held her in my arms, and fell asleep.

Grace Ashmore, girlfriend of Jamie Kim.

The Teenage Tell-Tale.

The Teenage Group Project: A Scene.

Returning to the Classroom: How Teachers Are Feeling Today

The students in the class are talking to one another in their circles. The teacher comes into the classroom and outs her things on the desk. She claps her hands to quiet down the class, and the class faces forward towards the teacher.

Teacher: Alright class, quiet down. Today’s the day that we talk about your final English project of the year.

Students take out their notebooks as the teacher begins to write on the dry-erase board. She writes out “Teenage Tell-Tales”

Teacher: You guys will be partnered with people you don’t normally interact with to complete this project. The “Teenage Tell-Tales” is a project where you document your journeys throughout NYC in pictures as well as either poetry, music; whatever you and your partner decide works best for you. It will be an eight-week project and I expect it to show in your project. I don’t want to see 8 entries of the same day because you decided to start your project a week before it’s due. Be creative and artsy; I know many of you are capable of doing exciting things for this project.

Mollie twirls her pencil on her desk; Milo watches as he leans his head on his hand.

Teacher: Now like I said earlier, you will be paired with a person you haven’t worked with this year, so please do not ask me to change your partner for no reason whatsoever. Your teachers in high-school will not excuse that behavior, so I’m not going to either.

The teacher walks over to her desk and open up a notebook.

Teacher: For the rest of the period, you will get to know your partner and exchange any info needed to start this project.

She flips to the page she needs and stands in front of the class.

Teacher: Alright, so the partners are… Laurie Warren and Brooke Michaels…

Laurie is seen rolling her eyes; she looks towards the girl with a bright pink mullet and painter’s smock.

Teacher: Mollie Sue Castro and Veronica Summers…

Mollie: *to Milo* Veronica Summers? Who the hell is Veronica Summers?

Milo: The Soccer player?

Milo nod his head in the direction of the girl; Mollie turns around and looks. The girl nods back.

Mollie: *turns around* This should be fun…

Teacher: Milo Kamalani and Sophie Lee…

Milo’s eyes widen as soon as he hears her name. He doesn’t turn back to look at her, he just squeezes his eyes. Mollie laughs.

Mollie: Yo, good luck being the partner of one of the minions; she’ll probably be so lost without Laurie there!

Milo doesn’t anything, he just squirms uncomfortably in his seat.

Teacher: Alright, please be seated with your partners, get to know each other; you guys talk up a storm when you shouldn’t, so now I better hear talking in this next period.

The students switch their seats. Milo gets up from his chair and turns around to go and sit next to Sophie. She looks just as nervous when he sits down next to her.

Milo: Hi.

Sophie: Hi…

The two teens don’t say anything after that. Sophie looks at MIlo and begins the conversation again.

Sophie: You haven’t spoken to me in a couple of days.

Milo: Hmm. I’m surprised you noticed, considering you were so busy hanging out with your friends.

Sophie: Are you mad at me for making up with my friends?

Milo: Those aren’t your friends, Scout! They treat you like shit and as their scapegoat.

Sophie: They are my friends and we worked things out. I see you worked things out with Mollie.

Milo: I have to work things out with her, she’s Jennifer’s younger sister!

Sophie did not know that about Mollie and Milo. She doesn’t say anything back, she just flips through her notebook and takes out a pen. She writes “Teenage Tell-Tales Project” on the top of the page.

Sophie: So how are we going to do this pathetic and stupid project?

Milo doesn’t say anything back. He watches Sophie jot down information needed to carry on with this project.

The "Something" Series

Something You’d Like to Ask: A Monologue.

10 Things New Yorkers Need When It Rains

There’s something so beautiful about the rain in the city.

The way the raindrops hit the concrete and bounce off, the way people run into the nearest store to buy an umbrella since they forgot theirs at home, and just the way the sky turns grey and the city lights turn on earlier than usual. Summer rain was always my favorite part, mostly because it would cool down the streets for a bit.

I looked up and saw a black umbrella opened above me. I look to my right and see Jamie holding the umbrella in one hand, and put his free hand around me. I felt small in his arms, but so protected. I’ve realized Jamie knew me better than I knew myself sometimes. I don’t know how someone that I met just under a year ago knew me better than any other person in my life. Did he find the time to get to know me and listen to me? Does he just understand me better than anyone else? I don’t know what it was, but Jamie always made me feel safe. And dry as well.

I didn’t realize Jamie was talking to me until I heard him call my name. I looked back up in his direction.

“Should we head back home before it gets bad?” Jamie asked. A part of me didn’t want to go home. A part of me enjoyed this scenery with Jamie and being present in this moment. I grabbed him by the hand and pulled him to a nearby park.

“Gracie, where are we going?” Jamie wondered. I looked up at him and finally let go of his hand when we got inside the small park. I ran out from under the umbrella and twirled in the rain. “Gracie!” Jamie called for me.

“Come and join me!” I excitedly said. The rain felt good against my skin. I had taken off Jamie’s blazer and placed in my tote bag. My dress began to stick to my skin as the rain hit me against my body. Jamie stood there, clearly confused at my behavior in that moment. After seeming like he was questioning it, he finally smiled and closed his umbrella. He squealed as the heavy rain began to hit his body.

“Wow, this rain is pouring down!” Jamie found himself yelling over the sound of heavy rain hitting the ground. I run up to him and grabbed his hand.

“Doesn’t the rain feel good?” I asked.

“It’s definitely something I haven’t felt in ages!” Jamie responded.

I let go of his hand and began dancing in the rain. My arms were stretched out and I looked up towards the sky with my eyes closed. I twirled in place, my hair hitting my face every time I stopped twirling. I couldn’t stop laughing. In this moment, I felt happy. In front of me was a man I found myself deeply in love with; his black hair sticking to his face, his glasses gathering all the fallen raindrops. He looked absolutely stunning in the rain. I ran up to him and kissed him. He seemed taken back from it, but he didn’t protest after a couple of seconds. He placed his hands on my jaw and kissed me back.

We break up the kiss and look at each other. He smiles.

“What was that for? I mean, I’m not complaining.” Jamie said. I laughed and wiped the wet strands of hair off of my face.

“Just felt like it.” I answered. He smiles back at me and goes in for another kiss.

I never been kissed in the rain. I thought that shit only happened in those cheesy Hallmark movies, yet here I am, kissing Jamie in the rain like it’s something we always do. Jamie was an interesting man, to say the least. He felt more like a gentleman than any other man I dated or been with. He also has really been the only one to allow me to be as silly as I can, as spontaneous as I can, and be as much of myself as I can. He made me want to show parts of myself I never got the chance to. I always had to be this “tough-as-nails” independent woman. I could never be gentle and small, and soft. Jamie allowed me to be both, and I enjoyed that there wasn’t no favorite side of his. He just took me for all of me, despite how imperfect I am.

Jamie grabbed my hand. He guided us out of the park after running around the park like two little kids. The rain was letting out, and we walked all the way back home in our wet clothes, without a care in the world.

He gave me his hoodie to wear after I stripped out of my clothes. He must’ve known I was cold or else we couldn’t have given me one of his over-sized hoodies. He comes out our bedroom in a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt on.

“Feeling any warmer, Gracie?” Jamie asked. He sat down next to me on the couch as I hold a cup of tea in my hands.

“Yes. Thank you for making the delicious tea, by the way.” I answered.

“You’re absolutely welcome.” He looked down at his hands and starting to pick at his nails. He seemed nervous about something. It made me feel uneasy; familiar to when he was going back to Korea back in December. I was worried I was going to hear it again.

“Is there something you’d like to ask?” I asked.

“Huh?” Jamie responded. I took a deep sigh before moving forward.

“Just say it.” I finally said. Jamie looks at me, confused.

“Say what?” He questioned.

“That you’re going back to Korea.” I finally admitted. Jamie looks even more confused than he did before.

“Why would you think I’m going back?” he finally asked me.

I looked at him, realizing that the day he told me he had to go back to Korea was something I still haven’t healed from. It’s something I worry about constantly these days; his three months were also over, and although he is applying for a work visa to stay here for an additional 9 months, things can go wrong. Good things don’t happen to the people who are in my life.

“You’re almost close to wrapping up your case, which means you’ll be out of work and your three months will be over and you’ll have to go back–” I couldn’t stop talking. I felt stupid feeling this hopeless over something I wasn’t even sure of, but I can’t lose him again. I can’t.

Jamie looked at me; he looked concerned. It look like he was honestly trying to put two and two together.

“Grace, I don’t know where this is coming from, but that’s not at all where I was going.” Jamie finally stated. I didn’t believe him. I don’t know why I didn’t, but my first instinct was to not believe him.

“You said that last time.” I spat.

“I didn’t know when I was going back last time.” Jamie spat back.

I got up and placed my glass on the coffee table and walked away from Jamie.

“Gracie–” He called out.

“No, Jamie,” I spat even harder. “Do you know how it feels to be walking on eggshells every time you have to say something or ask me something important. I know you’ve been spending all this time with me because you’re getting ready to leave me.” Grace, what the fuck are you even saying?

I don’t think I ever seen Jamie look as heartbroken as he did standing there. Maybe he knew I was right. Maybe this was his way of softening the blow before he admitted he had to go back to Korea. I spent stupid; embarrassed to even fall more in love with him knowing he was more than willing to go back. i couldn’t face him anymore, so I just turned away and headed for the bedroom.

He never came in that night.

The Teenage Tell-Tale.

The Teenage Self-Talk: A Scene.

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The sun is strong this particular day in the summer. People walk around in flip-flops and tank tops, sunglasses and shorts to get through the hot summer day.

Milo walks down a block slowly with his phone in his hand. He occasionally looks around and back down on his phone for directions. He keeps walking until he reaches his destination; a tiny home on a street.

He walks up the front steps and rings the doorbell; he’s nervous as he bounces his leg in place. Moments later, an older woman answers the door; she pretty much looks like Sophie.

Milo: Hi, uhm… Mrs. Lee, I’m Sophie’s friend; is she home?

The woman smiles. She gestures for Milo to come into the house, to which he slowly does. After he’s inside, the woman closes the door behind him and shouts something in Korean. Milo stands there, clearly confused at what’s happening. Moments later, a girl runs down the stairs and walks towards Milo. She smiles and grabs Milo by the hand to walk outside to the backyard. Milo doesn’t protest.

The wind is strong this particular day in the Fall. People walk around in hoodies and jeans, sweaters and jackets to get through the chilly Autumn day.

Milo walks down a block at a reasonable pace with his hands in his pocket. He looks forward and keeps walking in confidence; he knows where he’s going. He keeps walking until he reaches his destination; a tiny home on a street.

He walks up the front steps and rings the doorbell; he’s nervous as he bounces his leg in place. Moments later, an older woman answers the door; she pretty much looks like Sophie.

Milo: Hi Mrs. Lee; is Sophie home?

The woman faintly smiles and lets Milo in. After she closes the door behind him, she shouts for Sophie in Korean. Milo nervously stands there, waiting for Sophie to come down the stairs. She doesn’t.

Mrs. Lee: Sophie?

A door is heard being opened from upstairs. A girl walks towards the staircase and looks towards the front door; she sees it’s Milo. She slowly walks down the stairs.

Mrs. Lee: Dinner should be done in an hour; would you like to stay for dinner, Milo?

Milo: Uhm…

Sophie looks at her mother, gesturing not to continue with the offer.

Milo: Sure.

Mrs. Lee: You and Sophie can hang out before dinner is done. *to Sophie* You can sit in the back, the leaves were raked by your father this morning.

Sophie walks towards the backyard as Milo follows; they don’t say anything while they walk.

They walk outside to the backyard; some leaves are left behind from the tress in her backyard. They walk over to the two seats under one of the trees. She sits down on the light purple one; Milo sits on the mint green one.

Sophie: What are you doing here?

Milo: I wanted to talk to you.

Sophie: Why? So you can take it back to your best friend and laugh at me?

Milo scrunches his eyebrows; he’s upset she would even think that of him.

Milo: Do you really think that low of me?

Sophie: I don’t know, maybe it’s the fact that you literally took Mollie’s side even if she was completely in the wrong!

Milo: I didn’t take her side–

Sophie: *angry* Have you’ve gone mad?! You clearly took her side!

Milo: She’s my best friend, Scout–

Sophie: *stern* Don’t call me that.

Milo: What?

Sophie: Don’t call me ‘Scout’.

Milo: Are you kidding me?

Sophie: No, Milo! I’m not! This is not the person I became friends with over the summer! This isn’t the Milo I got to know in my backyard!

Milo: I’m still the same person!

Sophie: The person I knew would’ve done the right thing and not coward themselves because of their best friend who did a really shitty thing.

Milo looks at Sophie; he’s trying to make her understand that he values her as a friend.

Milo: Scout?

Sophie: What?

Milo smiles. Sophie squeezes her eyes shut as she knows that she just allowed Milo to call her by his nickname. His smile drops and gets serious once again.

Milo: I’m sorry for the way she treated you. I spoke to her about it because I was not okay with it. She had no right to come after you when this was between her and Laurie.

Sophie: I told Theo he was a jerk for what he did. Laurie questioned my concern for the situation. What Mollie did made things worse. *looks at Milo* She’s not friends with me anymore because of it.

Milo: If Laurie was a true friend, she would’ve known you weren’t the type of person to do that. That’s her dumb decision for believing what Mollie said.

Sophie looks back down at the ground.

Milo: Hey?

Sophie looks up at Milo.

Milo: Laurie and her friends are not going to bother you if they decide to not be your friend. *opens arms wide* You have me.

Sophie comes in and wraps her arms around Milo for a hug. He’s caught off-guard at first, but doesn’t protest. He puts his arms around her and smiles.

It’s another day at school for the teens; rowdiness and cliques surround the hallway. Milo is at his locker, about to grab his books for the day. He has a smile on his face; he can’t wait to hang out with Sophie. He closes his locker to see Mollie standing there.

Milo: Fuck! Mollie! Warn a guy!

Mollie: I’m sorry.

Milo: *confused* Huh?

Mollie: I’m sorry for what happened the other day. That’s not like me to do what I did, and I needed you to tell me that.

Milo looks at Mollie and holds up a fist, waiting for Mollie to pound him up. She looks at his hand and faintly smiles, pounding his fist back.

Milo: So I was thinking about that idea that you were talking about…

Milo closes his locker and his face drops. He sees Sophie walking down the hall with Laurie and the rest of the gang. Sophie and Milo lock eyes. Nothing is said.

The "Something" Series

Something Truly Calming: A Scene.

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It one of the more cooler days in the beginning of the new season. Grace and amie walk down the busy streets of the city once afternoon. Grace, in just her normal summer dresses, is now also wearing Jamie’s blazer jacket. Jamie is in his pullover, happy next to Grace.

Grace: Thank you for lending me your jacket. I didn’t realize it would feel so cold so soon!

Jamie: Autumn’s here in a week, Gracie.

Grace: Listen, there have been times that it was like summer on my October birthday. The Fall is just as inconsistent as the Spring; you never know what you’re gonna get.

Jamie smiles and slips his hand into Grace’s. Grace notices and smiles to herself; she doesn’t say anything about it.

Grace: Do you miss it?

Jamie: Miss what?

Grace: Home?

Jamie: We just left home not too long ago, Gracie–

That catches Grace off-guard. She looks up at Jamie and he looks down at her as well.

Grace: Korea. Do you miss it?

Jamie: Oh! Uhm…

Jamie ponders on the question. He looks up to the sky, and takes a deep breath in.

Jamie: Sometimes. I miss the Korean food the most; it’s just not the same in Koreatown.

Grace: Is Koreatown even a good representation of how life is like in the city parts of Korea?

Jamie: *chuckles* Absolutely not. *looks down at Grace* I think you would like it in Korea, Seoul especially. It’s very much like New York City.

Grace: Yeah?

Jamie nods his head.

Jamie: Most definitely. I will show you all the amazing places you can eat at when you’re there.

A lightbulb goes off in Grace’s head. She looks extremely excited. She squeezes Jamie’s hand even harder and proceeds to pull him to faster walking pace.

Grace: I know exactly what we should go to today!

Grace excitedly pulls Jamie by the hand, and he doesn’t protest. He never does.

Two large glasses of milk with swirly straws are placed on a restaurant table. Grace thanks the waitress and looks across the table at Jamie. Jamie looks around in awe.

Jamie: What is this place?

Grace: It’s called the Jitterbug Joint. It’s this 1950-themed place where their specialty is desserts and milkshakes. The milkshakes are way too cold to try out on a day like this, so instead–

The waitress places down a large plate of confetti-pancakes with sprinkles.

Grace: We’ll show you the second best thing in this place; Fetti-Cakes!

Jamie laughs at Grace’s excitement.

Jamie: Is this your happy place?

Grace begins to cut through the dessert.

Grace: When I tell you I would come here after work to eat tons of desserts when I was pregnant with Willow; I’m not joking. I lived in this spot.

Jamie: What made you stop coming here?

Grace: Life just got to me. I was now busy juggling the job and a new baby; I simply just didn’t have the time to come here and escape.

Jamie: *smiles* You seem like you’re happier.

Grace blushes a bit. She tucks her hair behind her ear and rolls up the sleeves of Jamie’s blazer to start eating the dessert.

Grace: You think so?

Grace pushes the other half of dessert to Jamie. He smiles and takes the extra fork from Grace and they both start to eat the dessert. Jamie’s eyes widen when he takes the first bite.

Jamie: Whoa, this is so good!

Grace: Right?!

Jamie takes another bite and wipes his mouth with a napkin. Grace watches him as she also eats her portion.

Grace: What do you mean I seem a lot happier now?

Jamie: You seem lighter, not as stressed as you were before. Maybe not being at firm anymore has lifted this weight off of your shoulders.

Grace takes in the response and eats her dessert.

Grace: Do you think I made the right choice? Leaving the firm?

Jamie: Do you feel like you made the right choice?

Grace: *sighs* Jamie…

Jamie: Do you feel like you made the right choice in leaving the firm?

Grace takes a moment to reflect.

Grace: I believe so.

Jamie: Then that’s all that matters. If you believe it was a right choice, no one else’s opinion matters.

Grace smiles. Jamie takes her hand on the table.

Grace: How are you able to stay level-headed and still be in the law business?

Jamie: *smiles* Let me show you my favorite spot.

Grace raises her eyebrows; she’s definitiely caught off-guard.

Grace: Lead the way, boss.

Jamie smiles and raises his hand for the check.

The sun is setting; Grace and Jamie are walking through a woodsy area. After awhile, they finally stop. Grace is at awe. She takes in the sight of the Brooklyn Bridge and the tall buildings in the next borough, surrounded by water.

Grace: This is… beautiful.

She turns around to see Jamie, who is standing behind her.

Grace: How did you find this place?

Jamie: *laughs* Actually from getting lost one day during my first visit here.

He walks up to Grace. She slips her hand in his. He instantly notices.

Jamie: I was trying to find a shortcut from the office my old firm was working out of. I was going to meet up with Shawn and Kevin and found myself lost on the way.

Grace: *laughs* Oh no! Did you ever meet up with them?

Jamie: I did.

Jamie turns Grace around in the other direction. Grace’s eyes widen.

Jamie: I eventually found the cafe.

Grace: Really?

Jamie: Yeah. *turns backs around* I find myself coming back here whenever I get stressed or if I’m having a bad day. It helps me clear my mind when things get hard.

As they walk back to the main road of the trial, Grace and Jamie hold hands and swing their arm. After a while, Grace begins the conversation.

Grace: I’m just so curious on how you’re still able to be composed and put together and still be able to do your job at the firm. I just feel like I always had to choose between one thing or the other.

Jamie: Life is just about balance. Once you’re able to maintain balance in the different things in your life, it makes things easier.

Grace: Sooooo, you’re saying is that all I need is better time management?

Jamie: *laughs* I’m saying that if you focus on one thing all the time, you miss out on the other great things in life.

Grace: You just seem like you always know what you’re doing.

Jamie: We all come across that way, it doesn’t mean it’s true.

Grace looks at Jamie; he doesn’t look at her back.

Grace: What was your turning point?

Jamie: My turning point?

Grace: Yeah. Like, what was the thing in your life that made you realize you had to change some things about it?

Jamie: *sighs* I wasn’t in Korea when my father passed away.

Grace doesn’t say anything, she doesn’t know what to say. Jamie stops in his tracks, lets go of Grace’s hand, and looks at her.

Jamie: I was in the states for the last two years of my law studies. Something told me to go back to Korea for the summer that year. Instead, I studied throughout the summer, and realized it was too late to go back. Mina called me, told me about my father… I couldn’t attend his funeral.

Grace looks up at Jamie as he talks. She feels sad for him.

Grace: I’m sorry.

Jamie shakes his head. He doesn’t want Grace to feel sad for him.

Grace: Your dad would be proud of the man that you’ve become.

Jamie looks up and smiles at Grace. He grabs her hands and swings them playfully.

Jamie: That means a lot.

They proceed to talk to the main street, holding hands, taking in each other’s company and presence.

The Teenage Tell-Tale.

The Teenage Callouts: A Scene.

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Mollie is shown in her room with music blasting, dancing along to the music and getting lost in it. Her head tilted high, eyes closed, and her arms extended. A knock is heard on the bedroom door, and then shows an older woman, Lydia, that resembles Mollie.

Lydia: Mollie, I told you three times to come downstairs and help me set up for dinner tonight! Your sister and her family are coming over.

Mollie: Mom, I’m trying to practice!

Lydia: I don’t care, I told you already that this was happening tonight. You can practice at practice tomorrow afternoon.

Mollie rolls her eyes and turns of her music and walks past her mother. An older man, Alex is seen walking up the stairs in which Mollie walks passed was well. Lydia is seem walking to the railing of the stairs.

Alex: Is she okay?

Lydia: She’s 14, moody, and a teenager; what do you think?

Downstairs in the kitchen, Mollie washes the dishes, clearly annoyed that she’s doing the chore. Alex checks in on Mollie.

Alex: Hey, kid; everything okay?

Mollie: I’m fine.

Alex: You seem a little tense. If you need to talk–

Mollie sighs and stops what she’s doing.

Mollie: I said I’m fine! Can everyone stop bothering me and let me just do what I have to fucking do!

Alex: *stern* Language, Mollie.

Mollie: Whatever, you’re not my dad.

Alex doesn’t say anything, he just walks away. Mollie continues to do the dishes.

When Mollie is finished, she goes upstairs back into her room. She falls into her pillow and browses on her phone. She can hear the doorbell and knows that Jennifer is here with her family. She hops out of bed and looks down at the railing to see Lydia and Jennifer greeting each other as well as the rest of the family. Lydia looks up at the railing and tells Mollie to come downstairs.

Lydia: Mollie, come down to say hi.

Mollie: Hey guys. Milo! Come upstairs!

Milo looks up and slowly walks to the flight of stairs. Mollie turns back to head towards her room.

Jennifer: *to Lydia* Kids will be kids.

In Mollie’s room, she sits down on her bed as Milo sits on her desk chair across from her. Milo doesn’t say anything, he just looks at Mollie.

Mollie: So, I was thinking for this audition that you can help me with some instrument stuff, like make an original cover of a song and I’ll sing it, y’know?

Milo doesn’t say anything. Mollie gets up from the bed and goes towards her desk to pull out a notebook and a pen. She walks back to her bed and sits on it.

Mollie: So I’ll definitely do something belty, like high notes and sentimental and shit to win over the committee – and like, with your guitar playing in the back and then BAM! the sick drum solo will come in!

Milo is in thought; in daydream. Mollie snaps her fingers in front of Milo.

Mollie: Hello? Earth to Milo? I’m talking to you!

Milo: Yeah it’s fine.

Mollie: … okay then. SO yeah, I was thinking that I can write the lyrics and we can make an original together and possibly showcase it for senior week? That would be so awesome and so dope!

Milo: *disinterested* Mhm.

Mollie looks up and puts the notebook and pen on the bed; clearly frustrated.

Mollie: What is wrong with you today?

Milo: Nothing.

Mollie: *annoyed* It’s clearly something, Mi. What’s got you moping around?

Milo: *defensive* Just drop it, alright?

Mollie: Well then stop acting like a little bitch and let’s talk about this audition!

Milo finally looks up at Mollie.

Milo: You only care about yourself, huh?

Mollie: What?

Milo: I heard what you did in the lunchroom the other day. That wasn’t cool, Mol.

Mollie: I have absolutely no idea what the fuck you’re talking about.

Milo: Maybe because you consider it a victory to your damn ego!

Mollie: Where the hell is this coming from?!

Milo gets up from his seat, frustrated at Mollie.

Milo: Did it ever occur to you that maybe, just maybe the reason you and Laurie hate each other so much is because you guys are exactly alike?

Mollie: How dare you! I am nothing like that bitch!

Milo: You did the same exact thing she did to you! What are you even talking about, Mol?!

Mollie: Who cares? Laurie got what she deserved.

Milo: Yeah, and now someone else that isn’t Laurie got the fall for it!

Mollie: Why do you even care?

Milo takes a moment to think of what he should say.

Milo: I don’t–

Mollie: When why are you so bothered?

Milo doesn’t say anything, Mollie rolls her eyes.

Mollie: Whatever. If you don’t wanna help me, then just leave.

Milo: Just know that you’re no better than Laurie. All you care about is getting revenge on others in exchange for your ego boost.

Milo leaves Mollie’s room.

Mollie: *yells* Whatever! I don’t need you as my best friend, you need me!

Mollie starts to break down crying in her bed, completely upset over the argument.

Milo walks down the stairs aggressively. He passes by the adults in the kitchen.

Milo Sr: Hey, bud; everything okay?

Milo: *short-tempered* Just leave me the hell alone!

Jennifer: *assertive* Hey! Don’t talk to your father that way.

Milo: *yells* Stop trying to act like my mom, because you’re not! I don’t have to listen to you!

Milo Sr: *angry* Milo!

Milo walks out the front door and slams it behind him. Milo Sr gets up from where he was sitting and tries follow him. Jennifer sits where she is, a little sad at what happened.

Overexposed: A Self-Love Project.

Overexposed: 1 Week Later.

Pretty crazy to see how much life has changed within one week, huh?

Hello, Letter Readers! Here I am, finally we’ll enough to sit down and type this bad boy out without feeling any waves of discomfort or pain now that, well…

Hi, my name is Liz, and I’m officially one week post-op!

Man, I never thought I would say that! I’ve mentioned this time and time again, but I was in the Bariatrics Program for 18 months. Normally, the program runs for 6 months but due to COVID, a lot of things (like this) were delayed. After months and months of testing, I signed consent and paid my fee in May, got my surgery date in June, and bam! We are now a week in since I had surgery.

For those who may be wondering, I had gastric bypass surgery. Unlike the sleeve, this type of surgery is when they take a smaller portion of your stomach and make it your “new stomach” and reroute the small intestine directly to that new stomach. In simpler terms, the food doesn’t go into the stomach press, but straight into the intestines.

When I was considering surgery back in January 2020, I was given both options and ultimately went to for the bypass, mainly because I needed some discipline in my new lifestyle. I know myself well enough that if there was some room for error (i.e still being able to obtain sugary things) then I was most likely not going to keep the weight off. With the bypass, if I have anything with added sugars, I can get severely ill. I needed that scare tactic to keep me away from any of the sweet things!

But yeah! Here’s how surgery day went:

I had to be at the hospital by 12:30pm but my actual surgery wasn’t scheduled until 3pm. My family and I got to the hospital and registered, and it wasn’t long until they called me up to the 4th floor (the ambulatory surgery area) to prep myself for surgery. They did the usual; stick me in a room with a gown and all that to put on, a pee cup to take a pregnancy test (which I couldn’t even pee since my nerves were all over the place) and put all the necessary stuff on me before heading to the operating room.

The thing that I hate about procedures like this is that they have you wait FOREVER before they actually call you into the OR. I had to have been sitting in that damn preparation room for 2 hours before I was called to surgery. But nevertheless, a nurse got me, told me it was time, and placed a blanket around me and we walked to the operating room.

Like LITERALLY walked to the operating room like I was entering someone’s party.

Anyway, I walked into the operating room and it looks like what it is; an operating room. The room was bright, there were tons of nurses and doctors getting prepped, and I was directed to lay down on the operating table. Doja Cat’s “Kiss Me More” was playing while everyone was prepping and I couldn’t help but laugh. For something as small as that, it really did help me calm my nerves a little bit.

So, they strap me down onto the table and hook up cables and all of that onto me, and then someone (I couldn’t see who) was reading and reciting these things that the surgeon and nurses had to answer and state back which was a little nerve-wrecking. The anesthesiologist put the anesthesia on and I was out like a light.

I wake up in the recovery room with a nurse sitting on a chair and typing some things on a computer. Her name was Jannett and honestly she was the best nurse I’ve ever had to date; she was so sweet and she had a good sense of humor! I must’ve been still so goofy on the anesthesia because I was cracking jokes with her and she was laughing while taking care of me. I was only fed some ice chips for the night, but I was encouraged to walk around and use the bathroom and all that jazz. For the most part, I was doing well, until it was time to sleep.

It was hard to sleep just because I was still in the recovery room area and the nurses were attending to those who were newly coming into the recovery room, fresh out of the operation room. Also, I was experiencing some unbearable pain and needed a painkiller to at least help me sleep. It did for a little while, but it definitely was a night of struggles.

I was able to go home the following afternoon because I was making a lot of progress in my recovery. I was able to sit and lay down on my own (even hook myself back up to the machines which blew one of the nurses away when watching me from afar) I was able to walk around and use the bathroom on my own, and my pain was mainly minimal at that point. I was discharged and I came home, took a shower, and tried to relax for most of the night. I did, and the pain was not as bad, but again it was another night of barely sleeping and tons of pain.

As the week progressed, I’ve gotten better. I’ve been taking my medication (a lot of it) as well as my shots to prevent blood clots. My pain has been more on the minor side (with some days being a little worse than others) but for the most part, I am just trying to learn how my body now works. I gotta learn when my body is hungry and when it’s full. I gotta learn how to eat slower and drink slower now that my stomach needs to keep it down in a different way (that’s honestly the hardest part for me is to eat and drink slowly). I need to learn what foods I can handle and what I can’t, how to take my medication without completely forgetting it or dreading it. I have to learn how to move and adjust and make these changes into habits so that I can move past recovery in a smooth and safe matter.

This is just the first week. I am off for another week before I return to my life back at my job, being a human being and doing human responsibilities outside of the house. I hope to come back here for a week two update feeling ready to conquer the world and live the rest of my damn life.

I can’t wait to noticeably see changes in my body, and I mean more than just the weight loss. I wanna be able to walk for long periods of time and feel like I’m not out of breath for once in my life! I can’t wait to be able to push myself to do the things I couldn’t do before having this surgery. It’s a long journey ahead, but man I’m excited to see how it goes.

The "Something" Series

Something Unforgivable: A Scene.

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Grace walks in the streets of Brooklyn; an area she doesn’t come often to visit. She never really had to come into Brooklyn unless it was to see Emerson, but he lived closer to the city than the part of Brooklyn she’s currently in. She’s looking down at her phone to see where her destination is located at. She stops in front of a brownstone and looks up at it. The address matches to the one on her phone. She walks up the steps and rings the doorbell. Shortly after, an older woman answers the door.

Grace: Aunt Jennifer?

Jennifer smiles at Grace.

Jennifer: The resemblance is insane. Come on in, sweetheart.

Grace enters Jennifer’s house as Jennifer closes the door behind them.

A file of manila folders are placed on top of the dining room table. Grace stares at the pile, now more nervous than she was before. Jennifer sits down across from Grace and starts organizing the folders.

Jennifer: I’m so glad that someone within the family wants to take over the business! I can’t see myself just giving it away to some stranger. This is just as much as my baby then my actual babies!

Grace: *laughs* I can only imagine.

Jennifer starts looking for documents in the folders as Grace looks on.

Grace: So, Aunt Jennifer–

Jennifer: Please, call me Pepper or Pep. “Jennifer” is way too formal for family.

Grace smiles. She’s still baffled that she’s considered family after being gone for almost most of her life from her mom’s side of the family.

Grace: –Pep, what got you in the business in the first place? Why didn’t you pursue, like, a professional career?

Jennifer: It wasn’t in the plan. I reunited with your uncle, Uncle Milo, after a year or two, and life just had different plans for us.

Grace: So, you changed your career for the sake of your children?

Jennifer: *nods* I did. It wasn’t just me anymore. It was my husband, and my children. I wanted to still do what I wanted to do but do it in a way where I could still come home to my family at the end of the day.

Grace ponders in the thought.

Grace: I don’t know if my mom told you, but I also have a kid. A daughter.

Jennifer: Of course I know that, Mollie never shuts up about that baby.

That makes Grace smiles, but not for long.

Grace: My previous career made me lose my family, in a sense. I don’t live with my daughter because of it, and… I don’t know, something tells me running this business for you will allow me to see her more. Be at peace some more.

Jennifer pours some iced tea in Grace’s glass for her.

Jennifer: You know what you value more in life now, and that’s completely okay that it happened later than what it expected you to.

Jennifer’s face suddenly changes.

Jennifer: You have the drive of your mother.

Grace: So I’ve been told. I’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing…

Jennifer: A little bit of both. She was passionate at her craft and extremely talented, and she was driven to be the best of the best in it. She also really loved your father, from what I remember. The decision was not easy for her, but we will never fully know her reasoning for the decision she made.

Grace: Did she talk about me when she left?

Jennifer: She didn’t talk to any of us for almost a decade. I think she wore that shame on her shoulders all that time, lived her life in isolation before she left competitive dancing.

Grace widens her eyes; she definitely didn’t know that information about her mom.

Jennifer: I’m glad you guys are in each other’s lives now.

Grace smiles and takes a sip of her iced tea. She places it down and clears her throat.

Grace: She’s definitely… different than I expected.

Jennifer: What do you mean?

Grace: She makes me regret the decision of quitting the firm to pursue this business every second she gets when we’re in the studio.

Jennifer laughs and shakes her head.

Jennifer: She’s just extremely harsh to people in this field. She knows you’ll be amazing and she just wants the best for you.

Grace: It doesn’t feel that way…

Jennifer’s attention is fully on grace and the direction this conversation is going in.

Jennifer: Is everything okay with you two?

Grace: *brushes it off* Yeah, it’s nothing to be worried about.

Jennifer takes a drink from her cup and stares down Grace.

Jennifer: Mmm, you lie just like your mother too.

Grace sighs at the comment.

Grace: Can you please stop saying that?

Jennifer: But it’s true though. Man, your mom couldn’t lie to us if her life depended on it–

Grace: *upset* I am not my mom! I am better than her! I didn’t leave my daughter behind for my career! My daughter is still in my life; she knows me, she still sees me, she calls me mama, I still do everything that I need to do and still be there for Willow! So I’m not my mother; please stop saying that.

Jennifer is at a loss for words. She carefully chooses her next words.

Jennifer: Grace?

Grace looks up at Jennifer.

Jennifer: You’re allowed to feel how you feel, but don’t let your emotions push you away from your mother. She means well, and she’s definitely got the same person she was when she was your age.

Grace doesn’t say anything; she just sits there in thought.

Grace: I know.

Jennifer: And I get it. My father wasn’t in my life for the majority of my childhood. He came back when I was a teenager and then left a couple of years after that. I don’t have the greatest relationship with him because he chose not to have a relationship with me. Your mom does. She’s trying to make up for lost time.

Grace: But–

Jennifer: Grace.

Grace gives up. She knows that Jennifer is right about the situation. Jennifer leans forward a bit to directly talk to Grace.

Jennifer: You would want your daughter to see you trying to be in her life. Mollie does to.

Grace sits there silently before she sees her phone vibrate. She smiles at the phone before placing it down. Jennifer notices it.

Jennifer: Who has you smiling all stupid?

Grace laughs, and Jennifer follows. The tension that was once there is now gone.

Grace: Just… a really good person.

Later that night…

Grace comes home and drops her bag near the front door. She quickly runs to the bathroom to use it and when she finishes, she goes to the sink to wash her hands. When she turns off the water, she hears voices coming in from the other room. She slowly walks to the door of the bathroom to listen to the voices in the other room. She smiles when she realizes it’s Jamie.

Grace walks out of the bathroom and slowly walks towards Willow’s room. The door to her room is cracked open, in which Grace looks in through there. Jamie sits on the floor faceing the crib as Willow lays down with her favorite seal plushie.

Jamie: *sings* And don’t don’t don’t, don’t doubt you; I believe in you. Just go, go, go, carry on…

Willow’s eyes begin to shut, and Jamie’s singing softens to nothing when he realizes she’s asleep. He quietly gets up from the floor to exit the room. Grace panics and tries to get away from the door as quietly and quick as possible. It doesn’t work. She stubs her toe on the corner of the wall, causing noise. Grace limps to the sofa to check on her banged toe.

Jamie comes out of the room and looks at Grace. His eyebrows cock up and wonders why she is limping.

Jamie: Jagiya? Are you okay?

Grace: *plays it off* Yeah! We’re perfect over here!

Jamie: *nods head* Ahh… and your toes? Are they okay?

Grace doesn’t say anything. she looks down at her toes, embarrassed. Jamie comes over and lifts her off from the sofa. Grace is shocked.

Grace: Jamie!

Jamie: What? i’m just doing my job.

Grace: The job of literally giving me heart attacks?

Jamie: No, I put one baby to sleep, now it’s time to put the other one down too.

Grace blushes and holds onto Jamie. He carries her into the bedroom and places her on the bed. He goes on top of her and kisses her gently on the lips. She looks up at him and faintly smiles. Her eyes are a bit teary.

Jamie: Grace?

Grace blinks and a tear runs down her face.

Grace: It… was a rough day… thank you for helping me with Willow.

Jamie kisses Grace’s forehead and then looks back down at her.

Jamie: Anything for you and little bean.

Jamie adjusts himself to lay next to Grace. He puts his arms around her as she lays her head on his chest. Jamie strokes the hair on top of Grace’s head until they both fall asleep, still in the clothes they wore for the day.

Misc., The Teenage Tell-Tale.

The Teenage Follower: A Scene.

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Milo sits at his desk playing with the phone in his hands. He looks down at it, nervous to open up the screen and see if Sophie messaged him. Every couple of minutes, he taps the screen to check; she never messages him.

He tosses the phone on the bed and holds his head in his hands. He keeps seeing the image of Sophie in the hallway, looking sad and hurt as ever. He feels horrible for turning his back on her, especially learning what Mollie did to her in the lunchroom.

He looks up and gets out of his desk chair and falls on his bed. He looks up at the ceiling until his eyes feel heavy and he drifts off to sleep.

The rain is pouring down the streets of Brooklyn. Two teenagers are running down the block, trying to take cover from the rain. They both run up the steps of a house.

Milo: Are you okay?

Sophie: *laughs* I’m alright, too bad we didn’t make it to a dry spot on time though!

Milo smiles and takes out his keys from his pockets. Sophie watches him.

Sophie: What are you doing?

Milo: Going inside?

Sophie looks anxiously as he turns the key into the front door. Milo notices.

Milo: You’ll be fine, Scout. Let’s go in to dry up.

Sophie doesn’t say anything, she follows Milo behind him as he enters the house. The teenagers kick off their shoes in the hallway. Milo walks up the stairs leading to the house. Sophie follows behind him.

Once they both reach the top of the stairs, Milo opens the door and holds it open for SOphie to walk in. She looks around as he closes the door behind her.

Sophie: This is a cute place.

Somebody walks out of the bathroom; a tall red-headed woman, Jennifer. She looks up at the teenagers and gets startled Sophie hides behind Milo.

Jennifer: Gosh, you scared me! Why are you guys all wet?

Milo: It started raining when we were hanging out.

Milo puts his head behind his back to grab Sophie’s. He slowly gets Sophie to stand next to him. He lets her hand go.

Milo: This is my friend, Sophie. *to Sophie* This is Jennifer.

Jennifer: It’s nice to meet you, Sophie. I might have some clothes you can barrow while I dry your clothes up.

Sophie smiles and nods her head.

Sophie: Thank you so much, Mrs. Kamalani.

Jennifer: Please, call me Pep.

Jennifer walks back to a bedroom while the teenagers stand in the walkway. Milo looks at Sophie.

Milo: She likes you.

Sophie: Huh?

Milo: Pep likes you if she’s allowing you to call her my her nickname.

Sophie: Why do you call your mum by her first name?

Jennifer walks out of the bedroom with clothes in her hand.

Jennifer: There you go, sweetheart. The bathroom is to your right. *to Milo* Remember to grab the clothes and put them in the dryer.

Jennifer walks into the kitchen to get the dryer ready. Milo walks into his room to get changed, and Sophie walks into the bathroom to do the same.

A little while later, the door of Milo’s room opens. Milo and Sophie walk into it as they overhear Jennifer yelling to keep the door open. Milo rolls his eyes as Sophie laughs.

Sophie: Mums can be overprotective, huh?

Milo: Uhm, yeah.

Milo walks to his desk to turn on his computer. Sophie sits on the edge of the bed, watching.

Sophie: Are you a gamer?

Milo: Nah, this is all for music. I record myself playing at times and see if I can become better. I gotta prepare for the Waverly audition.

Sophie: That’s exciting.

Milo: I guess.

Milo gets lost in his music while Sophie listens on. She’s amazed at how much Milo knows about the equipment and the different sounds to make everything come together. After awhile, he stops to take a break.

Milo: This is just a little bit of the things I work on.

Sophie: You’re so utterly talented, it amazes me. Who taught you all of this?

Milo: My dad. When I was a baby, he had his own recording studio in his apartment. Him and his band used to record demos when they were teenagers.

Sophie: Have you ever listened to it?

Milo: *shakes head* I haven’t. I feel like that’s something I have to do later, find my own sound, y’know?

Sophie: Well, what is your sound?

Milo looks at Sophie and ponders on the question.

Milo: I guess I still have to find out.

Sophie crosses her legs on Milo’s bed. She looks comfortable in his presence.

Sophie: Your mom is really nice.

Milo: Thanks…

Sophie: Her red hair is so bright! I wish i was able to dye my hair, but my mum would kill me.

Milo: Are you not allowed?

Sophie: *shakes head* In Korean culture, the longer and natural your hair is, the more beautiful and feminine you are. I mean, I call bullshit on that.

Milo: *smiles* You sound so tiny when you curse.

Sophie: *laughs* Whatever! If I could, I would be a leader instead of a follower, like you are!

Milo: I am no leader, Scout.

Sophie: Sure you are! You don’t try to fit yourself in what everyone wants you to be, you’re loyal to the friends that matter to you the most, and you are a style not all boys in our grade would ever have. That’s being a leader, Milo.

The conversation dies down and silence fills the room. Milo doesn’t look at Sophie when he begins talking again.

Milo: Jennifer isn’t my mom.

Sophie: What?

Milo: She’s not my mom. I never got to know my actual mom. She died when I was a baby.

Sophie doesn’t say anything, she sits there and waits for Milo to continue.

Milo: Sometimes… I feel like I don’t belong. That I don’t fit in. School doesn’t make it any easier. Everyone wants to fit in and then there’s me, not even fitting into my own family.

Sophie: Is you little brother…?

Milo: Mom and dad. They’re a family, and then there’s me…

Sophie: *stern* Hey.

Milo looks at Sophie.

Sophie: Family isn’t always blood, you know. Family is what you make it to be; those who love you no matter what you do in life, support you no matter how concerned they could be for you, and always welcome you with open arms. Jennifer is your mom, Milo.

Milo doesn’t say anything, he sits there and takes in what Sophie said. Moments later, Jennifer walks in with some folded laundry.

Jennifer: Alright, everything is cleaned and dried up for you guys.

Sophie: Thank you, Mrs– uhm, Pep.

Jennifer: Of course, sweetheart. Do you live far from here? Milo and I can drive you home since it’s getting late.

The two girls talk as Milo looks on, relieved that Jennifer takes a liking in Sophie and vise versa.

Milo’s phone lights up in his dark room. The vibration on his face wakes him up. He sees a notification from someone and instantly wakes up when he realizes who it’s from.

leesophie: Who would've thought you were the best friend to a mean girl, follower.

Milo unlocks his phone to write back a response when he sees Sophie has blocked him. Milo sighs in frustration.

Overexposed: A Self-Love Project.

Overexposed: Tomorrow.

Last month, I went to my consultation appointment and got introduced to the program and how everything is going to go for the next couple of months while being under this program. Like I mentioned in a post a couple of months ago, I am taking the bariatrics route of weight-loss. I’ve decided to make a huge lifestyle change this new year, and while I have the opportunity and chance to do this, I’m going to do it for my health; present and future. So, this month was my official first month of the program. 

– February 2020 Highlights & Favorites!

Maybe it’s the fact that it’s becoming more real as the days pass. I will be saying goodbye to this body in a couple of months, watching her change and look different than it ever has before. I mean, it’s technically still my body. It’s still my skin. Are we really saying goodbye to my body? Maybe just the way it is in its current state, but it’s still me. I still come with the way I am and the things that I like and don’t like and at the end of the day, nothing is changing besides the way my body is built. But still, it feels like I am saying goodbye to the Liz in the photos that are on my social media platforms, my Polaroid pictures, and the pictures that live inside my camera roll on my phone.

– Overexposed: Saying Goodbye to this Body.

Have you ever been depressed or sad because of you reflecting back on the time spent and the people who were once around during that time and now being in this moment about to close that chapter of your life?

Hi, my name is Liz, and I have surgery in 24 hours.

I’m nervous; no doubt about that. I know it’s normal to be nervous, but is it normal to have this wave of depression because, well, this chapter of your life is about to end?

I started this process in January 2020. I was 4 months into working at the bookstore, I had just turned 26, and I wasn’t even a kpop collector yet! I was still very much in this process of discovering myself and finding my identity outside of the relationship I had previously for most of my young adulthood. The people who’ve been here since the beginning; my coworkers, my friends in the community, other friends who I was once closed to are not all here with me to see me write this entry and finally say that I’m getting my surgery. It’s a weird feeling to say the least.

A part of me is mourning this life I had leading up to this point.

I guess I’m sad because it’s masked in nerves and anxiety that is normal, but I think it’s more than just that. It’s the fact that life has changed so much these last couple of months; I decided to let some of my past go and work things out with my ex in order to have a healthy friendship moving forward, many of my coworkers that I had left the job, I’m in the process of possibly transitioning to a new job, I don’t have a best friend anymore, and well, of course this surgery.

It’s just a lot to process in this short time.

Nevertheless, I am looking forward to the surgery. I’m so ready to feel good and to be able to do all the things that I’ve wanted to do but couldn’t because of my weight. I’ve been taking care of my mental health for the past 3 years and have made progress into that. It was about time I made some progress for my physical health and this was the best (and last) route to do that.

So here I am, nervous as hell, hungry as hell but also just… trying to make this day as smooth as possible. I know this transition is going to be a hard one, and I hope that I’m able to recover quickly and get my life back on track quickly, but nevertheless it’s happening and, well, it’s here.