Creative Pieces, Twelve Letters of Lizmas: 2020

The Story I’m Working On! (Something…)

Dear, guys – Welcome back to Letters From Liz!

So, if you’ve been on the blog for the past couple of months, you would see that a lot of my posts have been… scenes of some sort. I’ve been in a really creative place as of lately! My best friend, Ro, finished writing their first book (which took 2 and half months, like wow) and being in their writing universe during the process has made me inspired to get back and explore my own universe! So, I just wanted to talk about some of the stories that have been living in my head, rent-free, for months on end.

The “Something” Series:

These days, my baby is something called “The Something Series”, which is what’s being published on the blog these days! At first, it was just me throwing ideas on paper about some characters that I loosely played with. The more I wrote in this universe, the more I was captivated by these characters and the more I wanted to explore them out. It’s no 300-page book like Ro’s (haha) but it’s just something that keeps me writing and motivated during the times when I’m in major writer’s block. Anyway, let’s start off by talking about the main characters of this series; the something series.

So, Grace Ashmore is a 25-year-old woman that we were first introduced to in “What Do You Have to hide, Grace?” a scene about Grace working on her very first case with her partner, Max Harper. We left them off in a very… difficult situation, and well fast forward a little over a year! Grace is living in the city as a defensive lawyer at the same law firm she was interning in, and now she’s officially working on her first case! The difference this time around is that, well… she’s not with Max. Max actually left the firm once the trial case was over due to personal reasons and decided to move to the outskirts of the busy city. What made him quit his job, you ask? His daughter. Max had a daughter? Oh yeah, Willow; Grace’s daughter as well! Too long didn’t read, Max and Grace were extremely close to getting married, with their daughter, beginning their lives together. But, Grace is the daughter of Mollie Sue Castro, and the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.

But she’s trying. She’s trying to balance the responsibilities of motherhood by co-parenting Willow while still making a name for herself in the law firm. But, things are not always the way she wants them to be. Falling into her mother’s footsteps, she feels like she’s only capable of hurting the people she has in her life and ends up running away, to her safe space; which is her work.

While going through the craziness that is her first official case as a defense lawyer, she meets a man one day at the cafe near Central Park. This man, Jamie Kim, is a lawyer working a case overseas with his own firm for the next couple of months. Grace instantly captivates Jamie, who ends up helping Grace with her disorganized paper work that falls onto the ground in the cafe. After noticing her papers are case files, he instantly offers to help her, and Grace being Grace, she naturally allows Jamie to sit at her table, and well the rest is history.

They both most of their time together these days; Grace working on her case while Jamie chimes in and helps her out while he does his own work. Two lawyers, one apartment (it begins with hers, then gradually goes to his) and a ton of paper work. Grace appreciates the company that Jamie gives her, even on the weekends that she has to take care of Willow.

While things seem to be going great for them, they are both avoiding talking about things to one another; Jamie is avoiding the fact that in a couple of months, he’ll be leaving the United States and will have to leave Grace behind, while Grace is afraid to allow another man into her life, in the state that she’s in, terrified to break another man’s heart and soul. Max Harper, one prime example of how broken a man’s heart is.

Speaking of Max, he’s now teaching Law in a university instead of being a lawyer. He decided this decision when Willow was born, possibly one of the only things in his life he feels like he has to be great for. Coming from a small family of untreated mental illness back in England, his only mission in his life is to be as present and supportive and as great of a father he can be for his daughter; because of that, he sacrificed a lot of his life for her.

Max was immensely in love with Grace. He wanted her to be his wife and to be a family with her and their child. He cared for Grace, was there for her in her lows and highs and everything in between; he been though the toughest days when Grace was incapable of taking care of herself when she was pregnant. He still has so much love for Grace; he wishes that he could work things out with her, to have faith in her for one more chance to get it right, but deep down he knows that no matter how hard he tries to make grace into the person he things she can be, Grace will never conform into that. He’s accepted the fact that Grace will always be Grace, and she’s going to do whatever she needs to do for her.

Jamie, being the youngest and the only boy in his family, feels the need to exceed and be the best he can be in the field that he’s in. In a lot of ways, Grace and Jamie are similar; Jamie feels like the harder he works, the better he will be at his job. He’s come to terms that because of his job, a life outside of it doesn’t exist, hence why even for the holidays, he’s not back home, with his family, celebrating like he would. It’s like he has to prove himself in a way. But man, Grace is just different. He may not completely understand Grace’s mindset, and he wishes that she was able to see that despite everything, she’s still radiates light, and it’s the type of light he didn’t realize he needed in his daily life.

So, they’re definitely digging each other… but extremely avoiding it. Not really well, but they are just… vibing.

I really enjoy writing these characters because it’s one of the first stories in a really long time that hasn’t been rushed. To explain things further, I find myself wanting my characters and their love interests to immediately get in their feelings and just do the deed, but I’ve been really wanting to play around with this idea that characters need to fall in love with each other and still feel scared of ruining things through sex; especially these two. Grace and Jamie are characters that although they like each other, their interactions come off as platonic. They hang out, talk to each other like friends, yeah they’ve kissed after going out on a first date, but for the most part they don’t talk about that day and they act as if nothing happened. They are characters that feel like the people they are somewhat involved with are better off with someone else, even though they know deep down they don’t want to be a reality. They are… definitely interesting characters to play around with and the circumstances are definitely much different than what I imagined in other characters I’ve created. Nevertheless, it’s interesting to go through these scenarios and see how these characters behave.

So, yeah! It’s been something I’ve been working on in my spare time within the last couple of weeks! I’ve taken a page out of my best friend’s book of writing inspiration and actually made a playlist of music that reminds me of my universe or music that helps me write in it! We’re definitely going to have more of The “Something” Series later this week and month, so if you’d like to catch up on the story thus far, here’s how to read them:

The “Something” Series:

Twelve Letters of Lizmas: 2020

Reading Our Very 1st Post, On Our 500th Post!

Dear, guys – welcome back to Letters From Liz!

First and foremost, welcome to the first day of “Twelve Letters of Lizmas”! It’s insane to think that we’re now doing this for the fourth year in a row! Like every year, we daily blog for the 12 days leading up to Christmas!

This first day is extra special because we’ve officially reached 500 posts on the blog!

That’s halfway to a thousand posts on here, y’all.

It’s insane to always come back to these milestone posts and remember why we started this blog in the first place. I literally started this blog on a whim; I was in grad school at the time and missed writing for myself and creatively and decided as a hobby to finally start a blog!

Instead of just recalling some of my favorite posts since our last milestone, I wanted to try something different!

Hi, this is 500th post Liz about to reread our very first post on the blog!

A little backstory: This post was published on the blog January 5th, 2017. I officially opened the blog on that day but made it public on my 23rd birthday: January 9th, 2017. So on the day that I opened up the blog, I decided to just write some things so that there was content when I officially made it public. This is that post:

It’s hella trippy to see that my first post was an introduction post.

Okay, so for beginners: it’s insane to see that in that picture, I was in the city with my college friends. My friend, Tori (the other person in the dog filter), Liz & Yashira; ugh this was a really fun day and I really hope everyone is doing well these days!

Anyway,

  • It’s still very true: I am a Capricorn that doesn’t really believe in the whole zodiac things. I mean, they are fun to go back to and read up on horoscopes and just see what people say about them. I’m not the type of person that follows my life according to my horoscope, I just like to read it every now and then and share some of the funny things that make these horoscopes accurate at times. But yeah, still a Capricorn. Haha.
  • I still enjoy watching YouTube videos on my time away from writing, but I am not on Snapchat anymore! It’s crazy to think that most of my life was on Snapchat during this time and it’s trippy that it isn’t. Honestly, we stopped using that platform and just moved onto Instagram! These days, most of our time is spent on my various Instagram pages; whether it’s our personal page or the kpop selling/trading page!
  • I’ve still only been in love three times in my life: first love, second love, and then first love all over again. Three years later, I’m single and not in love with anyone at the moment (unless you consider a kpop boy a love which, off, don’t get me started) we’ve just been enjoying the time we have to ourselves before we decide to go ahead and start dating again. To be honest, I probably won’t put myself out there until after my surgery and after I get those important things out of the way, but for the most part, I’m happy with my platonic friendships and just getting to have the life that I haven’t had for a really long time from being in relationships and shit.
  • It’s funny to see that I thought I had my social anxiety under control during this time because a year later, we got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder! In all seriousness though, Grad school did force me to speak in front of large audiences for presentations and projects so for the most part, I’ve gotten a lot of practice speaking, but it didn’t make the process any easier. Instead, I feel like it really messed me up even more. But, TLDR; I will never feel like i would master the art of public speaking… or speaking, really.
  • My beliefs in energies are still the same; I very much still believe that the energy you put out there is the same energy you’ll get back and that your energy is capable of attracting certain other energies and all of that. I’ve learned, though, that even if you only put positive energy out, you’re not always going to get that back, and sometimes “positive energy” is unconventional. Meaning, sometimes the positive energy you need to put out goes against what you’re comfortable doing and saying for the sake of your own mental health.
  • I still very much believe to always being yourself, despite how human you get. I still vividly remember this time in my life still believing I have to be bubbly and happy all the time or else I “wasn’t myself”, which in all honesty, being nothing but one dimensional and happy all the time was as fake as it sounds. I’ve learned over the years that it’s okay to be sad or upset or angry; it’s a part of being a human being. So yeah, be yourself: the good and bad of it all.
  • Piggybacking off of the last post, yes I am mostly a bubbly person, but the number isn’t as accurate. I’m still a very upbeat person and I think bubbly is the best way to describe my personality, but like – once you get to know me, you definitely get all 31 flavors of me.
  • I’m still really into hair, but I’m not constantly changing it like I did when I first started this blog. My last drastic thing I did to my hair was cut it into a pixie and that was almost two years ago. Oof. But yeah, I’m trying my hardest to start growing it out… we’ll see.
  • As much as I want to say this last statement is true, I feel like there’s more to life than having an optimistic point of view on things. I very much still believe in keeping an optimistic mind on things, but the same way that you can’t always be positive about things, you can’t always be optimistic about things as well. There are going to be moments where you have to be realistic about some things, and that’s completely okay. It took me awhile to really come to terms with that.
  • While I feel like I’ve definitely grew up over the last three years, I definitely find myself still struggling when to let things go. It’s funny, because I really thought I was finally being able to let things go without realizing that well, one of the hardest things I had to do was to let something go that I didn’t realize was bad for me until things got really bad. Even to this day, I feel like it’s still so hard for me to realize when it’s time to let things go, but hey – I don’t think that’s something we as [people will ever master. We won’t ever know when the expiration date is on for things until our soul tells us.

It’s insane to think that in 2020, so much of this has changed. I’m a kpop collector, I have friends from that community, kpop in general is just a major part of my life, I have a job, I’m taking care of my mental health, and I’m just in a better place than I was in 2017. I think the last 500 posts show this journey pretty accurately.

Anyway, thanks for tuning in to the first day of Lizmas! I hope you guys enjoy the content to come within the next week and half to Christmas! Until then, stay safe and see you tomorrow!