Dear, guys – welcome back to Letters From Liz!
First and foremost, welcome to the first day of “Twelve Letters of Lizmas”! It’s insane to think that we’re now doing this for the fourth year in a row! Like every year, we daily blog for the 12 days leading up to Christmas!
This first day is extra special because we’ve officially reached 500 posts on the blog!
That’s halfway to a thousand posts on here, y’all.
It’s insane to always come back to these milestone posts and remember why we started this blog in the first place. I literally started this blog on a whim; I was in grad school at the time and missed writing for myself and creatively and decided as a hobby to finally start a blog!
Instead of just recalling some of my favorite posts since our last milestone, I wanted to try something different!
Hi, this is 500th post Liz about to reread our very first post on the blog!
A little backstory: This post was published on the blog January 5th, 2017. I officially opened the blog on that day but made it public on my 23rd birthday: January 9th, 2017. So on the day that I opened up the blog, I decided to just write some things so that there was content when I officially made it public. This is that post:
It’s hella trippy to see that my first post was an introduction post.
Okay, so for beginners: it’s insane to see that in that picture, I was in the city with my college friends. My friend, Tori (the other person in the dog filter), Liz & Yashira; ugh this was a really fun day and I really hope everyone is doing well these days!
- It’s still very true: I am a Capricorn that doesn’t really believe in the whole zodiac things. I mean, they are fun to go back to and read up on horoscopes and just see what people say about them. I’m not the type of person that follows my life according to my horoscope, I just like to read it every now and then and share some of the funny things that make these horoscopes accurate at times. But yeah, still a Capricorn. Haha.
- I still enjoy watching YouTube videos on my time away from writing, but I am not on Snapchat anymore! It’s crazy to think that most of my life was on Snapchat during this time and it’s trippy that it isn’t. Honestly, we stopped using that platform and just moved onto Instagram! These days, most of our time is spent on my various Instagram pages; whether it’s our personal page or the kpop selling/trading page!
- I’ve still only been in love three times in my life: first love, second love, and then first love all over again. Three years later, I’m single and not in love with anyone at the moment (unless you consider a kpop boy a love which, off, don’t get me started) we’ve just been enjoying the time we have to ourselves before we decide to go ahead and start dating again. To be honest, I probably won’t put myself out there until after my surgery and after I get those important things out of the way, but for the most part, I’m happy with my platonic friendships and just getting to have the life that I haven’t had for a really long time from being in relationships and shit.
- It’s funny to see that I thought I had my social anxiety under control during this time because a year later, we got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder! In all seriousness though, Grad school did force me to speak in front of large audiences for presentations and projects so for the most part, I’ve gotten a lot of practice speaking, but it didn’t make the process any easier. Instead, I feel like it really messed me up even more. But, TLDR; I will never feel like i would master the art of public speaking… or speaking, really.
- My beliefs in energies are still the same; I very much still believe that the energy you put out there is the same energy you’ll get back and that your energy is capable of attracting certain other energies and all of that. I’ve learned, though, that even if you only put positive energy out, you’re not always going to get that back, and sometimes “positive energy” is unconventional. Meaning, sometimes the positive energy you need to put out goes against what you’re comfortable doing and saying for the sake of your own mental health.
- I still very much believe to always being yourself, despite how human you get. I still vividly remember this time in my life still believing I have to be bubbly and happy all the time or else I “wasn’t myself”, which in all honesty, being nothing but one dimensional and happy all the time was as fake as it sounds. I’ve learned over the years that it’s okay to be sad or upset or angry; it’s a part of being a human being. So yeah, be yourself: the good and bad of it all.
- Piggybacking off of the last post, yes I am mostly a bubbly person, but the number isn’t as accurate. I’m still a very upbeat person and I think bubbly is the best way to describe my personality, but like – once you get to know me, you definitely get all 31 flavors of me.
- I’m still really into hair, but I’m not constantly changing it like I did when I first started this blog. My last drastic thing I did to my hair was cut it into a pixie and that was almost two years ago. Oof. But yeah, I’m trying my hardest to start growing it out… we’ll see.
- As much as I want to say this last statement is true, I feel like there’s more to life than having an optimistic point of view on things. I very much still believe in keeping an optimistic mind on things, but the same way that you can’t always be positive about things, you can’t always be optimistic about things as well. There are going to be moments where you have to be realistic about some things, and that’s completely okay. It took me awhile to really come to terms with that.
- While I feel like I’ve definitely grew up over the last three years, I definitely find myself still struggling when to let things go. It’s funny, because I really thought I was finally being able to let things go without realizing that well, one of the hardest things I had to do was to let something go that I didn’t realize was bad for me until things got really bad. Even to this day, I feel like it’s still so hard for me to realize when it’s time to let things go, but hey – I don’t think that’s something we as [people will ever master. We won’t ever know when the expiration date is on for things until our soul tells us.
It’s insane to think that in 2020, so much of this has changed. I’m a kpop collector, I have friends from that community, kpop in general is just a major part of my life, I have a job, I’m taking care of my mental health, and I’m just in a better place than I was in 2017. I think the last 500 posts show this journey pretty accurately.
Anyway, thanks for tuning in to the first day of Lizmas! I hope you guys enjoy the content to come within the next week and half to Christmas! Until then, stay safe and see you tomorrow!