Hi, my name is Liz and I’m not okay.
Depressive episodes, anxiety/panic attacks, and hypersensitivity: some of the patterns I’ve been on for the last month and a half. We have our good days and our moments when we’re happy and having such an amazing time, but then when things get bad and I can’t find a way out of the episodes and attacks and the constant emotional moments, it gets bad.
I feel like I haven’t been taking care of myself properly these last couple of weeks. I’m not eating as much as I did because I just lost my appetite, I feel my body growing weaker as the days pass, and my brain fog just gets worse as the days pass as well. It’s frustrating, and sometimes I find myself stressed to the point I get angry; “why does my mind work like this? My can’t I just process things and go through things like a normal person? Why can’t I just stop letting things get to me and completely destroying me?
As much as I want to write on here and be present as the blog continues to grow, I made the decision to cut back on the posts.
I do appreciate everyone coming on the blog to check out the new posts on here when they are published; I mean so many of you read the Victon Album Review which is so mind-blowing to me considering it’s just me fangirling over my boys!
I do need to take some time for myself and be present for myself in order to recover from whatever this is.
I’ll still be on here, I’m very much wanting to continue “the something series” since it allows me to think about other characters and an universe not my own, so if you’re into the series and are waiting for some more, I gotchu.
But yeah. I have a lot of work to do in order to feel better and to feel some normalcy in my life, and cutting back on some of the blog might help me focus on staying present and available for the people & the things around me; most importantly for me.