I wanted to write this post because I feel like it’s going to be a challenge to write down things that people might not already know about me. I’m pretty in touch with myself, and I’m not ashamed to tell it all about myself because these are things that make up who I am. I sit here and think if there’s anything interesting or if there’s anything I can actually share.
We’ll see how it goes. Here’s the “The list of weird/semi-interesting shit that you may or may not know about me” list:
- My mind is constantly full of potential stories I write. When I was little, I was that one girl who had imaginary friends, and I had a lot of them. My imaginary friends never interacted with me though, like I never sat there and was like “Melissa, let’s have a tea party.” I was always, like, the observer; I created these different characters to interact with each other, so these people had lives all their own; they were never a part of mine. As I got older and started to realize I began to sound crazy to people who I tried explaining it to, until I started to actually draw and write these stories down. To this day, I always have this space on my mind where I have these little story-lines of these different people who deal with real life situations, dilemmas, and issues. I guess it’s the writer in me.
- I consider myself a minimalist. In fashion and things that are in currently, you can say that the “minimalist look” is trending. Blacks, whites, grays, and off-colors are very in as of now, but when I call myself a minimalist, I’m talking about my ideas and the way that I live my life. I am not a luxury person and I don’t like people to do luxury things with me and for me. I like to consider myself very simple; I don’t try to complicate things, I don’t allow materialistic things completely take me over (seriously my phone is like my only real luxury), and the things that I like aren’t out there or extra. I feel like I’ve always been a minimalist before being a minimalist became a trend, because even when I was younger, I was very minimal to the things in my life. It could be the way that I grew up and the environment I was in that made me this way, but hey – now there’s just a word for it.
- I’m a perfectionist. In the 23 years that I’ve been living, I never considered myself to be a perfectionist because I always felt like being a perfectionist meant you had this OCD condition where people hyperventilate if things aren’t up to their expectations no matter how big or small. When it comes to things that I know that I can do better in, that’s when my perfectionist qualities come into play. When it comes to creative projects or things I know I’ve done great before, I’m very particular and picky in how I do it and how I complete things. I know for a fact that if I’m passionate about something, I put my all into it. For example, my last semester I took a very great class, “Teaching of Writing”, that had us doing tons f these presentations about the writing world and I was so intrigued with the class as a whole. Every project I had I spent weeks prior to it being done; I even chose to do the longer, 20-page thesis paper in a month time-span. I always will feel like whatever I can do, I can always do my absolute best, and I guess that’s how I cope with doing things.
- I am a YouTube Fanatic. I started watching YouTube content in 2015, starting off with basic tutorials on hair and how to achieve certain looks, until I stumbled upon the Fine Brothers REACT Channel. I was really fascinated with the gaming react videos that had some of their reactors actually play these games, and it was insanely funny. The suggested videos afterwards were videos from other creators on YouTube, and I’ve been a faithful fan since. Of course, my interests expanded to other things like challenge videos, comedy, and vlogs, and these are the top channels that I faithfully watch on YouTube every day:
- As much as MTA sucks, I’m called the “MTA Queen”. I live in NYC, and my source of transporation is definitely the buses and trains. I travel all around Brooklyn, whether it be to Bed-Stuy on the B38 or G train, or coming back home on the R or D trains. Because I attend grad school in Staten Island, I also travel around Staten Island, especially if I’m able to get a ride off of campus and dropped off at a bus stop taking me back to Brooklyn. I’m usually the person you can ask for directions because I just know where every train goes to (buses not so much). I’m not afraid to travel on new routes to new neighborhoods at the end of the day, I know my way home.
- I’m an introvert that occasionally likes to be social. It’s weird, I love to be around people that I like to hang out with and go out occasionally, but I classify as an introvert. That may not come as a surprise for you guys, but I do engage more to my introvert side. I love to be alone, and sometimes I find myself getting a little annoyed if I feel like I can’t be alone because of my small apartment, but I do find time to just have some me time and be with myself.
- I’m oddly interested in Rhetoric & Composition Studies. When I was an undergrad, I was an English Writing major, and I never really explored anything outside of that, besides Literature of course. My last semester as an undergrad, I took a Linguistics class that I really enjoyed, which influenced my decision to concentrate my Masters in English under Rhetoric & Composition. After getting a taste of it in my “Teaching of Writing” class last semester, I never realized this side of the writing world before. You learn things that you always questioned yourself (i.e. why is literature so heavily concentrated in English and writing becomes secondary to that) and when you realize just how much life influences these things. I feel like this would definitely be a plan B if my plan A isn’t doable.
- I hate making decisions. Obie definitely knows this for sure because every time he asks me what I want to eat or what I want to do or watch or whatever, I never give him a straight forward answer. It’s not that I don’t wanna answer or I genuinely don’t know, it’s just the fact that with other people, I’m very laid back. If you’re going to drink that drink, I’ll have it too. If you’re gonna have that food, I’ll gave that too. If you wanna watch this or listen to this, then I’ll do so too. It’s not that I don’t have a mind of my own, it’s that I like to try and do different things that I do normally. You will not catch me in my house watching battle rap or WSHH Vine Comps or even episodes of Martin or Power; those are things I do when I’m with Obie. No matter what, I always have a good time with him, even if he calls most of the shots.
- Sometimes, I get really nervous and anxious when going places. I always have to be on time to places, even if it’s simply to go to Obie’s house or catch the bus to Staten Island. I always tend to get really bad stomach cramps whenever I am out and feeling late to places; I don’t know where I developed that nasty habit, but it does make things a lot more stressful than things are. I try to cope with the anxiety by just leaving earlier than I usually do and find a route that I am most comfortable taking with the least amount of people and less transfers and so forth. As of now, I guess it’s just the New Yorker in me, wanting to rush everything.
- Lastly, I carry a lot of self-doubt on my shoulders. I am currently a year away from graduating with my Masters. I am trying to lose some weight while being on Weightwatchers. I am trying to find new ways to cope with anxiety and explore new habits I can adapt into my everyday life. I am living my life to better it and keep my inner peace and happiness, but being the person that I am, I do carry a lot of self-doubt. I sometimes feel like I might fail on the things I set my mind on. I get discouraged and begin to lose faith in myself and I hope that I can prove myself wrong with the goals I have my mind set on. I’m a planner, but I never seem to be a doer.
I think these are some things that I don’t think I ever shared to people before… but then again, I do feel like some of them aren’t a surprise. I tried! Haha. 😛